Monday, September 27, 2010
Trapped--Magickal Advice Wanted
I haven't written lately becuase I've been in a very difficult situation and I really feel trapped. I feel that I have a lot of talents and ideas and I like to express them in my job. I don't like to talk too much about my work on here but I will tell you that I work in education. Sometimes my job can be wonderful and usually there are challenges but I can handle them. I've hit a point where I feel I can't handle it anymore. I've been placed in a very difficult situation and I know that I can't stay in this position . . . but resigning would be a very big deal! I don't like the feeling of being trapped. I don't like the feeling that everyday I'm going into work and not knowing what to expect . . . other than I'm going to be yelled at . . . and I'm going to have to yell and get angry as the only means to keep discipline (long story but I never work this way normally). This is a systemic problem . . . all the systems are failing to help anyone in this situation and I'm on the bottom rung trying to keep things together. It's not working and I didn't cause it.
Even my dreams are sending me weird messages. I had a dream that a group of people were going to blow up a room in a school (not my workplace). I was told to get out but then I remembered I left my bag in that classroom where the bombs were directed. I went back in and saw other people still in the building. I left and wondered whether I should warn the police (not sure why I had to think of that). When I came out and saw the bomb people again, who were getting ready, I noticed my spouse was with them. I yelled at him sternly and told him that he had to leave with me now or never come home again. Disturbing, eh? I figure this has something to do with my work situation.
There may be one way out though. Today I saw a job posting in my "company" where I could move up to a higher position and still keep my status without resigning. I started writing a cover letter and I have a CV already put together. I REALLY want this job and I'm qualified . . . but other more qualified people might apply.
To supplement my work to get this job I want to use some positive magick that will get me noticed in a positive way. Any suggestions??? I know there must be people out there in the blog world that can give advice on magick. Even if it was just ideas to create my own ritual. Thank you :)